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Satisfaction Not GuaranteedI'm sorry I couldn't be perfect
I'm sorry you aren't satisfied
I'm sorry this cavernous hole in my skin
Isn't enough to prove that I tried

AloneThis is the
First time that
I'm
At a loss
Suddenly realizing that
Even in a world of billions,
I am still somehow completely
&#

SuicideStill don't
Understand
Impossible beauty
Crying,
I
Die
Every day

Anxious and AfraidAnxiety pokes and prods
Trying to make its way in

Claws rip down my sides
Trying to find the crack in my armor
Leaving gouges in my shell
Anxiety gets angry, mad I won't let it in
It's efforts get stronger

I fight to stay on my feet
Clench my fists, squeeze my eyes shut
Beg silently in my head
Pray I'll make it through today

Screaming Inside"I know what's wrong with me, and I know how to treat it."

"Then why are you here?"

"I want help."

"But what you're doing, it's as much as anyone could help you with. You're doing more for yourself than anyone could do for you. So what do you wnat me to do?"

Silence.
I want your help.
"You're doing extremely well considering..."

Silence.
Please help me, I don't want to be strong. I'm not strong. I just want you to help me!!! Please!!!

"Take care of yourself."

Silence.

(Screaming inside)

I'm TryingI'm Trying.

What more do you want from me?

Can't you see I'm trying my hardest?

I'm trying to make something of myself.

I know nothing is promised and I may not be the fastest.

I know my attempts have not resulted in any form of wealth.

What more can I do to prove to you that this is what I want?

I can see you are finding it difficult to get past this.

You think there is more I can do to help myself.

You can see that I'm struggling; I never tried to mask this.

I want you to understand that this is something I must do for myself.

But all that I will ask for you is,

I hope that one day you will believe in me.

Believe in everything

LostLost.

Do you ever question

Everthing that you love?

And that he alone decides whether you go

Or above?

Below

Kela lewis-morin

They SayThey Say.

They say there is always a silver lining.
But right now my future looks bleak.

They say the sky is the limit.
But my vision is blocked by a mountain peak

They say life is a game.
But I was never any good at hide and seek.

They say were all different.
But does that mean that were all unique.

They say everyone wants to win.
But I have no desire to compete.

They say there are plenty more fish in the sea.
But they didn't say whether the water's shallow or deep.

They say everyone is searching for the same answer.
But I have'nt got it in me to cheat.

They say I'm too negative.
But I know this also comes hand in hand with d

Day for a DepressiveDragging along is a simple thing
here there is no pleasure;

Try to SmileSometimes when the days are rough
I find being happy more than a bit tough
But knowing that my friends are there
Makes me at least have a bit of care

I laugh less than the average person
And always because of that my problems worsen
But you are always there for me!
You'll always, always let me be.

Sometimes when the days are black
And that's pretty often, for a fact
When I see that they're here for me
It makes me feel a little more carefree

And sometimes when I see they're really down
With more than just a little frown...
And I, so happy, laughing and smiling
See them there, all saddened and crying...

On these days, it doesn't hurt
To try

If I Didn't Have YouCrying softly in this faded room,
I watch as the tears fall down onto the windowsill.
Moonlight seeping in and shining on the picture,
the picture that caused a simple little chill.
One that crawled down my spine and
reminded me of memories in my mind.

My mind goes back to better days.
The ones where daylight fades,
and the night time was crazed.
Baby, you laid there in my arms
through the shining haze
and the our blurry ways.

Sitting there by the lake
we laughed, we lived, and we loved with all we were.

'Cause darling you were my anchor
holding me down when the storms got rough.
And you were the guide that took over my life

Find the InnocentWith eyes of darkened sunlight,
and tears of falling red,
you broke through golden barriers
while stealing shade instead.

Heart races faster as the guilty now surround.
Sweat now beads as you find no way out.

Run over cobbled stones
to find serenity
because in the end
all you have is me.

The Beauty of DeathDeath is something I fear.

And yet I find it ever so enchanting...
It wraps me in its coils, whispering
Disturbing words, a mindless ranting
Yet words so full of grace and beauty.

They call me a madman.

But what is there to chide about?
I find death beautiful--I find it amazing.
There really is no reason, at me, to shout
Yet those who see me praise this glorious work

They insist that I am insane.

But death is something they should not fear!
Death is life, and life is death.
Without death, life cannot draw near
And without life, death cannot exist.

Death is beautiful.

Death is sad--oh, ever so sad!
But within the hollow graves of men
I

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What It Is Like To Be Gay

by *GermanyXItaly1000, Nov 27, 2012, 11:30:26 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I feel so abandoned
Amidst the waking of a midnight dream
Locked in, victim of a cave-in
The misty, loosened seams

The seams of my slowly dying life.

Vanishing, leaving with a blink, disappearing
Misunderstood, I find myself forgotten
After all this time, I find myself still hearing
The words of those who haunt me

All because I kissed a girl.

Walking upon the cobblestone paths
Never finding a soul with an ear
Unable to undo the prejudiced wrath
That they, the unforgiving,
Have brought down upon me.

Please, won't anyone listen?

Listen, please! To our woeful cries
To the shouts of those you dub as condemned
Someday you'll finally see into our eyes
The eyes of those you claim to hate.

We are the forgotten.
The outcast.
The ones you all hate.
The ones you claim are evil.

If you try to undo the blinds only you can part
The blinds that hold you to biased beliefs
You'd find that perhaps our kind
Have, just like you, a human grief.

We feel it. Every moment.
Your persecution, your hatred.
Your shouts for "justice".
Your need to eradicate us.

We are human.
We are people.
We are women.
We are men.

Just like you
We have lives.
We have feelings.
And we have hearts.

The only difference is that
We men love men
And we women love women
But what is there to judge?

What is there to want to kill
What is there to want to destroy
What is there inside us
What is there that you hate?

There's no one left.
Only those who are like me
Will live to keep this message
In their hearts and souls
Because hardly anyone tries to understand...

What it is like to be gay.

What It Is Like To Be Gayby *GermanyXItaly1000

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Because still I find that there is little justice for people who are different.

I stand for all those who seek their future happiness. May they find it!

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~CarmenMEOW Dec 1, 2012

this literally blew my mind... beautifully written!

*GermanyXItaly1000 Dec 2, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Thank you

~floridapanther28 Nov 30, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

This is really good~ <3

Question- how did you get the text so large at the end?
Also, if anyone looking in the comments sees this and knows how, please tell me.

*GermanyXItaly1000 Dec 22, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Oh, and the text... what you want to do is write < font size= (put number here) > without the spaces between the "<" and ">" signs and the words.

~floridapanther28 Dec 23, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

<fontsize=5Hello>

...It didn't work ;~;

*GermanyXItaly1000 Dec 23, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Eh... there's a space between "font" and "size", and the word you're using (Hello) goes after the < font size=5 >.

So, without spaces between "<" and "font" and "5" and ">", write it like this:

< font size=5 > Hello!

~floridapanther28 Dec 25, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

<font size=5>Hello!

~~Forget it, dA hates me~~

*GermanyXItaly1000 Dec 2, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Thank you

~ScarletSutcliff Nov 29, 2012 Student Artist

Amen to that.

*GermanyXItaly1000 Dec 2, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Amen!
So, Ms. Sutcliff, how have you been? :3

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